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Running OutYou always tell me youll seriously maim or even kill the people that hurt me the people that make me sad. You always try to protect me because youre my best friend. Its what were supposed to do for each other.
But what if I was the one hurting me? What if it was something deep inside me that was killing me, not someone tangible outside me? Would you still try to kill it?
Would you really try to kill the loneliness inside me? Could you? Would you?
Some days it doesnt bother me. Others, it feels like its choking me. Im suffocating myself to death something thats not even supposed to be possible.
They say that when you choke yourself to death you cant do it. Your body protests and forces you to let go and breathe. But my reflexes must be slow or something because I never do let go. I cant. I dont know if its that I dont know how or or if I just dont.
So let me
No Matter WhatNo matter what I did, no matter what I tried
Nothing I did was good enough to protect you
You curled up in my arms, crying so hard you shook
And begged me to make the pain go away
I did my best, but I didnt know how
I wanted to make the world disappear for you
I wanted to do everything for you
Ive given you all I have to give
But it wasnt enough to protect you
Im sorry I failed you
Im sorry that no matter what I tried
Somehow the pain got through
No matter what I said or did
No matter how far away I took you
All that pain still found a way to reach you
Whatever would have made it end, believe me,
I would have done it for you
I would give you anything if I only had anything left to give you
You have my heart, you know, even if its not the way you want it
Youre my whole world, you know
It broke my heart to see yours shattered
It hurt even more knowing I couldnt stop it
I can never make it go away
I cant erase the pain I started
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